Circa 10/10/2014

This picture came up in my facebook memories.  My Mom had come to town to take care of us after we found out about Lainey.  The girls had hope and excitement to have a baby sister.  Mom took our minds off everything going on around us.  

This picture is so incredibly painful to me.  Trying to make the best of a bad situation.  Kaylie's young and naïve hopeful heart. She prayed we'd have a baby after all, she was so excited.

I managed to get through the entire day today and no one knows the tears I've shed.  Not my husband, not my friends, not my kids.  While I write this a friend is sending me messages on Facebook, happy, cheery...she has no idea my eyes burn from the makeup in them.  I even spent time at the movies dying inside.  Thought about running my car into a tree on the way home in the dark and rainy night.  

My God, when does this pain end. Almost 4 years later, no one wants to hear about your grief.  

HoCo 2018

Levi invited Kaylie to homecoming this year.  Before dinner we took some photo's at 

Levi's house with friends.  

 I suggested Levi and Kaylie stand up for a few pictures, they stood straight up, side by side with their arms down and Levi's friends were like, "No, no, you have to do it like this" and they wrapped their arms around each other and continued to instruct Levi and Kaylie until they had their hands in the right place.  It was so funny!  

Kaylie and Levi, both 15 and Sophomores.

The kids did a few more fun pictures before heading off to Pomodora's for dinner.  At Pomodora's they meet up with another set of parents and another couple. 

 They made it to the dance and had a good time.  Kaylie commented that Levi opened doors, pulled the chair out for her to sit down...he was a perfect gentleman.  I'm so grateful there are Momma's still raising their boys to be gentleman!  

This year I did not get one decent shot of Lexie dressed up in her Homecoming dress!  She and her friend Lauren fooled around too long and missed daylight picture taking.  UGH!