This picture came up in my facebook memories. My Mom had come to town to take care of us after we found out about Lainey. The girls had hope and excitement to have a baby sister. Mom took our minds off everything going on around us.
This picture is so incredibly painful to me. Trying to make the best of a bad situation. Kaylie's young and naïve hopeful heart. She prayed we'd have a baby after all, she was so excited.
I managed to get through the entire day today and no one knows the tears I've shed. Not my husband, not my friends, not my kids. While I write this a friend is sending me messages on Facebook, happy, cheery...she has no idea my eyes burn from the makeup in them. I even spent time at the movies dying inside. Thought about running my car into a tree on the way home in the dark and rainy night.
My God, when does this pain end. Almost 4 years later, no one wants to hear about your grief.
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