Last year the littles and I went camping with some friends from church. We had such a great time, cooking, laughing, playing. Rick of course was working, so I had to go alone with the girls. That trip is coming up once again. I'm looking forward to it and I'm not. 
It is so hard to believe that this time last year I sat around a campfire, laughing and telling stories with my friends while my baby girl was quietly growing inside of me. Hard to believe she was with me as I slept on the cold hard ground, pushed and pulled a wagon full of heavy gear. I'll be here again, but without Lainey. She was apart of me then, these pictures represent a time in our life when she was with us. Sigh.
So I'm going through the motions, preparing for the trip, preparing for fun. It will be good for us, but so often I find myself in awe that we went through these times all last year, while Lainey was with us and we didn't even know it. Part of me is sad to know I won't be carrying her with me this camping trip. I truly would have carried her forever if it meant she was still with me.
I pray for a good time and sweet moments with my girls.
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